"What the hell am I proving? What’s wrong with being a wife? I want to be a wife. I want to be an individual! It doesn’t work can’t I be an individual in my brain and not tell my husband? Wait! What if my husband loves me as an individual?! Are those men real? Some of my friends are like that but they’re my friends. Why are they my friends? Do I just need to get laid I do NOT want to get married. I’m hungry."
This is recovery.